This. sucks.

Okay, so I know my blogs have been a leetle down this week. Maybe it's because I have an infection on my FACE. I've been optimisitic, but when my topical thing was 5 days....aka tomorrow is the 4th day...and I still have this thing loud and proud... I'm just pretty frustrated. My doctor doesnt like to be super aggressive. I think I'm done with him. I looked in the mirror and after 5 days, it looks a LITTLE better, but not as good as it should. *sigh* I feel like a damn freak show...Let alone the fact that I cant wear makeup there, cant go to the gym really, cant tan, cant even sleep b/c I cant sleep where my chin could touch my sheets. Just lemme vent here for a sec.

I read online that this is often treated with an oral antibiotic AND a topical thing. I want the oral antibiotic damnit. I'm calling tomorrow morning and if he (1) makes me come in or (2) wont give it to me, I'm over him. *sigh* This just sucks b/c I'm paying for this out of pocket, too b/c of the way my insurance is. I really dont want to go BACK to the doctor to have him prescribe the meds he should have prescribed on MONDAY.

To give you an idea, I cant even BLOW. MY. NOSE. b/c once I blow it, the bottom of the tissue might have touched my chin. So, I throw tissue one away and get another. It takes like 3 tries. Then, like 3 times per day, I have to take a soapy cloth (paper towel) and gingerly wash it while part of the "honey crust" scab (as the internet calls it) comes off so I can put the medicine directly on the wound. Hot? Yeah. Try having it on your face.

I'm bogged down. And I have a hole in my face. And googling pictures of my condition freaked me out. And I want someone to just come over and take care of me...or rub my feet..or..or...I just want to whine and thank you for listening. Done.