"I have a dream?"

Yeah, so one of my jobs is to write speeches. Sometimes I have more...sometimes I have none. It's like 20-30% of my job.

So, how come I have three in the next two weeks when I'm feeling about as motivational as a tree stump? Fuck.

And.. I'm outta town some of next week, so the motivational blood needs to start flowing through me TO.DAY.

Does "willing" mean I'm easy? haha

So, the pic is of a little index card I keep in my bathroom. Some of you may remember it from rush in college... We did a lot of cheese-tastic things in that sorority admittedly...But, I'm okay with the above. We all sat around, wrote our names on an index card and started passing them...asking each girl to write one word to describe the person on the card.

Well, I found it when I moved here...and I was faced with not only graduation from law school, but a summer apart from my boyfriend while he explored Asia. Needless to say, I had a few mornings when I didnt wake up super ecstatic about life as I grabbed books that were too heavy/bulky for one bag and faced what I thought was impending doom...haha... Gotta love the bar...

Anyway, I'm rambling, but I put this card in my bathroom, stuck haphazardly in the mirror clip. And there is has stayed since then so I can see it every morning when I get out of the shower. When I'm in a crappy mood or maybe a leetle down, I see it and it makes me that much happier.
I think some of the girls writing were dilusional, but their dilusions make me happy. Whatever. It's not really the words, but more that I'm at least doinga good job fooling people that I'm not a complete jackass.. ha... ;)

And, why did I bring that up tonight? Oh...b/c my shower head project turned dreadfully wrong when I realized I couldnt even get the wrench from the package.... Yeah, seriously. (CHILD SAFETY TAGS CAN KISS MY ASS). Then, I couldnt get the current head off... ARG. So, I decided to side track for a second...haha....

Other things that made me smile today:

* Our intern in AR text me from college: "I hate school. Can I just borrow your JD while you're not using it." My response "Yup..At least then I'd feel like I was getting my money's worth if two of us had it..."

* I may or may not have put on my cute dress for Friday on, danced around the apartment...and made my dog thing I was nuts.

Back to cleaning...Cleaning is good... except when I'm in this super reflective "look at the index card" mood.. This is gonna take forever.. lol!

My dog ate it.

Gracie ate my work phone...well, most of it, that is. *sigh* There are worse things in life. I didnt even yell at her b/c, frankly, what's the point? She'd already done it...and she'd just spend the day hiding from me if I yelled. Blah.

I think she may have found my bronzer brush as well-which also hacks me off. I had this AWESOME brush and it broke on one of my August work trips.. That said, I was still using it...b/c I loved it that.much. It looked sooo trashtastic. haha. I have bought about 4 brushes that just.dont.do.it like the ghetto stub of the broken one. *sigh* Alas, it's gone...I'm sure I'll find it riddled with puppy fur and teeth marks.

I was bummed.out. last night. I dont think the magnitude of Asia had really sank in. I get very Scarlett Ohara "Ill think about that tomorrow"...haha.. I also think I was distracting myself and putting energy into things that dont deserve as much energy as I've given. I realized that some of the things I was distracting myself with upset me... b/c I wasnt even behaving like MYSELF these past two weeks. Before that, I was having a good time and was actually making sense of everything. Then, somewhere, I just decided "annnnd...maybe I dont think I'll deal with this..." hahaha... By blocking things out, I really started to displace my emotions in weird places. (*think: being a bitch to people that didnt deserve it, letting someone walk on me who shouldnt have, complete inability to make easy decisions*)

Uuuun...healthy... (clap clap clapclapclap) hahaha... So, I feel better today. I blame Brothers and Sisters for my emotional breakthrough.. lol! Kidding...

Now that I've talked myself in a complete circle, I am SO excited for homecoming this weekend! I always get weirdly excited about it, though.. I make a bigger deal out of it than I need to. Whatever. Every year, I ask myself why I went to TU on Tap, but it's good to see that handful or more of people (that you actually enjoy talking to) that you otherwise wouldnt see... I have a SUPER cute dress to wear thanks to my trip to see Lauren in Chi! :))) It shall be featured in many photos. Prepare yourself.

So, if you're still paying attention... There's something this blog doesnt adequately demonstrate about me.. I tend to be all "Yay! Look at my photos! Lookie! Lookie! I love pink!" Well, some of you know my capability to be a complete and utter bitch; I just dont blog about it. That said, recently, a guy tricked one of my good friends into thinking he doesnt have a girlfriend (he does). Needless to say, after over 6 mos of dating, she found out in a really ugly way. My opinion: Take all the lovey dovey emails he's sent...all the pictures of them together...and send them...straight to his girlfriend. I would. She deserves to know...and he deserves to suffer. Granted, this is coming from the girl who planned to catch someone cheating, take a picture, and send it to her boyfriend...all b/c she f*cked with me and hurt my feelings on purpose. Bitch. I ended up taking the high road..blah blah...karma..blah blah...but still...

But, uh..yay! Hooray for my cute dress! hahahaha!

Happy Monday, people! Thanks for sticking with my non-subject randomness lately. Love love.

"Bow Down or Bow Out...XOXO...."

- Gossip Girl.

Things that I did this weekend:
* Had my eyebrows done
* Bought new shampoo that smells outstanding and makes me happy! I was using Aveda for a little while until I realized it dried.out.my.hair. Blah on Aveda. BLAH, I say!
* Washed my comforter
* Went to my mom's...saw a car in the driveway and went inside not thinking about it.. until I realized she had a DATE over there. A DATE. It was nothing...they were just hanging; had just finished lunch. I was kinda a bitch. I was SHOCKED, people. Eh, whatever. I guess he's going to the TU game with her this weekend. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! I have little patience for this...*sigh*. As long as she's happy...
* Went out to CELEBRATE Michele's BDAY!!!! :))) HOORAY MICHELE!!!

So, today, I decided to get little G money groomed. I piled her in the car and headed to the place.. and forgot her rabies vacc record. Blah. They wouldnt groom her, so we went to Woodward Park where she wore herself out bolting after squirrels (and taking me with her). :) It was a bit hot, but G and I had fun people watching, squirrel chasing, and running up to small children screaming "doggie!"

This week, my manager is in town to do out mid-cycle reviews. I'm not worried, but it makes for a little bit more of a stressful week.. Eh.. (hence the blogging tonight instead of tomorrow morning)



I love the above photo from Chicago...and needed a random photo. So, I hope it freaks you out like it did everyone else.. LOL!

OMG... So, I bought a new shower head...b/c mine SUCKS. I didnt get a super nice one..but just a better one. Okay, that said, I have NO idea how to install it. I even bought tools. Yeah, I did. *nervous* This might have to wait til I have some help...and I dont like saying that. But, when the project could interfere with my cleanliness, I'd better be careful...haha..

So, also...there's something that's been on my mind a little lately...and it has to do with giving people the benefit of the doubt. This weekend, I decided I'm done with that...and I think my actions need to start reflecting the same. Being genuine with those who deserve it...sure...but those that dont, bow down or bow out, bitches... (no, none of you, no worries....)

Hope you had a GREAT weekend, everyone!!!! Gonna go watch the premiere of DH and B&S!

Dont make fun of my mental disorder.

I think I have SAD.. Seasonal Affective Disorder. It's real, people... Alright, alright.. I'm bullshiting here, but I'm waxing and waning between kinda blah, super blah, eh, and so so..... :)

I think part of it is my allergies... I dont get hungry when I'm (1) going through something or (2) have allergies. So, add both those together and wham! I'm an anorexic! YIPEE! Lol! Kidding. I'm an asshole, though... If I dont eat on my meds, I'm practically a zombie... (Just ask my dog) I've been snacking a ton instead of eating meals b/c when everything tastes like chalk (thanks, allergies), I'm not famished....

I also seem to be having a real problem with decisions lately. WHAT THE HELL?! I am GREAT at decisions! But, take today for example... Michele and I went to the mall b/c I needed perfume (Ps.. D&G Light Blue is the ONLY perfume I've ever used up AND bought more... I have like 3 half bottles of Chanel Chance, Burberry Summer and something else if you want it.. Just sayin). So, I got my perfume and then let the cute little Cargo makeup girl do my eyeshadow..just b/c I did. She kept telling me I look like Michele Pfieffer (who we all know I might be obsessed with) so this pleased me and I let her make up my face more... Then, I debated about what I wanted to buy for oh....20 minutes...and ultimately decided to buy nothing other than the perfume.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?! LOL!

At least I smell good. Hmph.

Okay, so... can you go to youtube right now? If so, go.. and search "sarah silverman" and play the one about Barack Obama..should be the first video that comes up. It.is.hilarious. Also, please search "I'm f*cking Obama" b/c it's also awesometastic...

What did you think of Grey's? Me? Well.. I think it coulda been better.. a lot better. I was actually a leetle pissy I'd gotten so excited about it. I couldnt keep the husbands of those ladies straight. Then, I got mad at Alex. And I just felt less than interested the whole time. It was like "here's a story line..wait..no here's another...and here's one more... and now the show's over.." Lame sauce.

Back to the decision making issues. Hair. It has taken me FOREVER to grow my hair out since I chopped it back when I was still at the law firm. (Remember?). I do like it...and if I go short, I look better when I go REALLY short (not like pixie..) but I dont think I've got the balls to take it there. Shoulder length makes me look like a school kid. Then I think "Ill go BROWN!" but when I look at pics of myself with brown hair, I think "No." I mean..that would be like making Serena Vanderwoodsen a brunette! The horror! ;) I need to get more decisive before my stylist calls me out next week and gives me the look she always does like "Seriously? It's f*cking hair...." haha..

Hope you have a fantastic weekend, people. I'll be more exciting next week. I can feel it. (I cant f*cking smell it..b/c I cant smell ANYTHING... but I can feel it damnit).

Love love! Get ready for homecoming!!!

Chicago, etc! :)

Below is night one (Friday) and day one (Saturday) :) of my trip.

Night one: OU Bar!
Day 1: lunch at a little cafe before shopping at Francesca's Collections (check it out online..cute stuff) and heading to Michigan Avenue. Sara met up with us for some Cheesecake and fun pics at the John Hancock building before we headed out that night to celebrate Lauren's bday!!



See what I mean about the whole "liking scarves" thing? Yeah. I like them. A lot. This phase will pass, but whatever...

Anyway, I want to rant a little...

So, it's no secret I've been a leeeetle tense (hahaha). And when I get tense, I get short. Blah. Well, I was VERY short yesterday with people I shouldnt have been short to (eye doctor, friends, etc). I wasnt RUDE...just not normal, I suppose. I started getting all "I dont trust anyone and everyone is an asshole"... LOL! Basically, I needed to shut the world out a little... :) Cranky Cranky.

Anyway, woke up on the right side of the bed this morning and came in to work all jolly.. until...I saw an email from that new girl at my work. The background matters, but it takes too long to explain. All you need to know is I was helping her with an assignment I shouldnt have even really been doing. No biggie...UNTIL I got that email...wait until I was cc'ed on that email.... from 5pm last night saying "Hi all executives..blah blah.. Jax is working on the speech tonight and will send to you tomorrow."

UM. WHAT?! Tonight?! As in last night? As in on your assignment? As in throw me under the bus on something YOU didnt get done? Are you KIDDING me?!

So, I immediately put out the fire with the people expecting the speech, called my superior, and drafted the speech. I knocked.it.out. (proud grin) I'm still waiting to talk to my boss b/c she's been busy. No worries... I'm eloquent, people; I dont lose my temper. But, I know when I need to step up and say something, too...

Anyway, new contacts today! Hooray! Headed into a conference call, but wanted to update you on my life since I pretend like you care.. lol!

Who's excited for GREYS TONIGHT?! OHMYGOD I AM!!!!!!

Questions.

Things that annoy me: when people ask questions I dont want to answer. Mind you, none of you have asked said questions (and I appreciate you). I'm referring to conversations like this with my co worker:

Co worker: How was Chicago?
me: Good... Fun...
Co worker: How's Aaron? Still moving to China?
me: Yep...
Co worker: Doesnt he realize you're here?
me: Well, I'd think he realizes that, yes.
Co worker: Oh, well, what do you think about that?
me: China's got the great wall... That's cool... (If I cover something with sarcasm, I dont want to talk about it.... HINTHINTHINT... lol!)
Co worker: Seriously...How long is he going to be over there?
me: Until he makes it a democratic nation.

Lol! Whatever. I know people are curious, but seriously... SERIOUSLY... It just puts me in a bad mood every single time.

So, in other news, I finally made an eye doctor appt for today!! I've been on my last pair of contacts two months now...and I think they only last a month. haha.. My eye doctor is SO adorable. She's a thirty something little blonde who talks my ear off every time I go in... It usually starts with a heavy, disappointed sigh about how I should have come in sooner and wearing my contacts too long is bad for me...blah blah...

Gracie devoured my last pair of black close toed heels not too long ago, so I need to get my rear to the shoe store. Blah. I wear heels all winter. I'm kinda enjoying wearing open-toed stuff til the very last minute...

What I think is weird: TU scored exactly 56 points in the past two games. I really want them to do the same this week...just b/c I do. So.. there.

Things I just decided:
- After my 2:45 eye dr appt, I'm not coming back today! hah!

Things that annoy me:
- We have a new person that took over one of my VPs... That said, WHY AM I PICKING UP THE SLACK?! I dont mind.. like at all...but..I HATE coming in to a project late in the game, having to rummage through 16 files full of information and spit out a speech from it...in about a day. I know I know...wah wah.. I'm just sayin...

Oh, I'm sorry..did you say I was random?

Yo. I'm back from the windy city...

There are cute photos on facebook that I'm sure you're all dying to see (riiiight) but for now, this is all you get on the blog.

I landed and blah blah we had to go to the wrong gate b/c problems, etc. So, I ended up at British Airways terminal or something. Anyway, Lauren had to play "find the Jax" while I waited, totally confused...when I saw THIS

Oh, you're not sure what you're looking at? Well, look wayyyyy down...see...waaaaaay down.. like 20 ppl sitting cross legged? Yeah, well, Lauren got a better look and we think they were PRISONERS. So, you know I took a pic b/c how oddly cool is that? (nervous.... I'll just say there may or may not have been men in uniform monitoring them)

As for jail, did you know Leighton Meester (Blair on GG) was born....in JAIL? Her momma served time for a drug conviction. Whoa. Crazytown. Speaking of GG, I LOVE Serena being a bitch again. LOVE it. I think like to pretend I'm a combo of all the characters..with less designer clothes... and less issues. lol! Anyway, last night I felt very Serena. I was like "F*CK YES. You go!"

Anyway, when something happens in my life, what do I do??? Oh, we all know this one..c'mon.. I change my hair! lol! So, what do we think of the below? Your options are limited, people, b/c I've committed to changing it... I think. And I like being blonde, so shorter? Likely. I want a short, SASSY cut....b/c I'm feeling rather sassy lately.

So, the Chicago trip was fabulous! I dont wanna give away too much without posting the pics, too...We went to the zoo, shopped, saw the musical Mamma Mia, etc...Ill blog more tonight.

I sat next to a baby on the way THERE and on the way back...and seriously.. neither were as cute as Nate..and the one on the way back was quiet. But, the one on the way there made me want to have my tubes tied the second I stepped off the plane. Mean? Right. Try being stuck on a runway with a child screaming "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" at the top of his lungs while his mother completely ignored him. I did, however, get some enjoyment when the kid (about 1.5 years) tried to rip his mothers earring from her ear. This made me laugh sadistically. Sad. True. Sorry.. I'm going to hell. I'm actually going to be in the VIP section there.

This week, things are happening:

* The fair is HERE! (thurs) I have heard that Boyz II Men (spelled it right..wow) are appearing on SATURDAY. OH.MY.GOD. Wanna go? I'm serious.

* If you're looking for me on Thursday, you might just try my sofa. Oh wait...if you actually consider bothering me during the premiere of Grey's, I might have to kill you. My date is with Dr. McDreamy and Meredith Grey. :) (well, unless you want to go to the fair. I'd put off Grey's for a corndog and a ride on the orbiter.)

* Michele's BDAY!! Hooray! :)

* I'm oddly in love with scarves...with everything. I can thank Lauren for this. But, I want to wear them all.the.time. I look like I'm afraid of my own neck. Whatever. Deal with it.

ALSO: AND IMPORTANT: My Glamour mag had an interview with each candidate (Barack and McCain) and they're damn good questions. You should read: I think the below is just barack, but go to McCains as well. http://www.glamour.com/magazine/2008/08/obama-interview

Friday

Dude. My boss sent these out. A single house that was built after Katrina/Rita withstood Ike.. The pics are amazing..

http://www.ireport.com/blogs/ireport-blog/2008/09/18/the-last-house-standing

Other pics from Ike...including better ones of the house...
http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2008/09/the_short_but_eventful_life_of.html

My fear of dark water would NOT.BE.GOOD. in that situation. Once I saw the pic of the gator wandering around, I felt like I couldn't breathe...just READING THE STORY. I never understood panic attacks until this dark water fear. I remember trying to race someone to a buoy in the lake once. I am a good swimmer, people.. was on the swim team...and lifeguarded. And I got halfway out, realized I was in the middle of dark water and started FREAKING.OUT. I have never swam so fast back to shore in my life.... Weird. I realize I'm weird.

The Grey's Anatomy season finale was on last night (kinda weird b/c I was actually talking about it yesterday) Anyway, I guess it's b/c the season premiere is next week! (woo hoo!!!). I am such a sicko for the romantic stuff. I mean really..the end..with Mere and Derek...*happy sigh* I used to HATE that shit. I dont know when that changed...haha.. I used to never cry at tv (b/c it's TELEVISION, people), but now, I'm lucky if I make it through an ep of Grey's without bawling about something. It's odd that I date people that aren't really that romantic. Granted, I'll trade loyalty and a solid connection with someone for romance any day. But, it's just comedic to me...

I leave for Chicago today and I'm really excited! I've got on my typical plane outfit-jeans and a white baby tee and heels. I'm NOT checking a bag. I think it's ridiculous to pay 25 bucks to check a bag. NO! We're gonna go see Mamma Mia and shop and take ridiculous photos and party (of course) and and and... :) My friend, Sara, is also headed up there this weekend and we might meet up with her to go to an 80s dance bar... *You're already imagining that, arent you?* haha.. Anyway, Aaron's having guys weekend so I'm sure I'll see him at some point, but I'm super excited about girl time... SUPER!

I've figured out recently that I'm in a weird place... I'm in a place where I'm tired of ambiguity on all fronts. Example: I want a car; I'm tired of just thinking about it. I want to feel more settled. I am SO tired of second guessing everything. Does that ever stop? It's rough to have enough life experience to know 1/2 of what you need to know to make decisions. The other 1/2 is all risk. And well...I'm a lawyer. I calculate risk. When I cant calculate it, it takes me forever to do it. It's like...when I jumped off the waterfall. The video (which many of you saw) featured a very freaked out Jax...lol...but I was determined to do it. When people started yelling at me to do it, I freaked more and sat down. But, once I was alone with my own thoughts, I decided to do it and that I just had to go for it. Thats how I operate. Sometimes I just sit on the waterfall too long before jumping, I think... That was just a general rant, but just sayin...

And...I finally got my allergy pills from the pharmacy so life.is.good. again. I'm SUPER tired today, but I can breathe...............ahhhhh........

Hope everyone has a great weekend! Look for fun pics from the Chi! I dont get back til Monday late, so I'll talk to you on Tuesday!

Dude.

First, the RW/RR Challenge is DUMB this year. The Island?! Really?! No. I'm still gonna watch it..even though my crush got kicked off last night. Where are the Challenges?! These people suck. Ugh. Lame. They're building a boat?! What are they? Swiss f*cking family Robinson? Lame.

My back seriously hurts. BAD. I hold tension in my right shoulderblade area. And it sucks. Blah.

So, yesterday, I was trying to be a good mom (to Gracie) since I've been gone a lot I feel like. We've been spending lots of quality time together on long walks and running and playing, etc. Last night was no exception, we set out for an adjacent neighborhood for a long walk. When I rounded the 30 minute walk home (that's long for Gracie...I dont want to over-exertion), I noticed my keys...were NOT in my pocked. SHIT!

They had SO fallen out somewhere...

I immediately hightailed it back the way we walked...complete back tracking.. dog in tow...She kept trying to potty and I was like "NO, this isnt time for potty.." LOL! I think people thought I was insane...

After working up a sweat and cursing myself most of the way, I found them..on the corner right by my apt...which meant I dropped them at the beginning of my walk. *sigh* Whatever.

At least I found them. Gracie was pooped. Funny...

I'm ready for Chicago..but have SO.MUCH.TO.DO. :)

Decided.

I want a new blog layout. Tonight, I shall achieve said goal. I cant see any of your damn pyzam layouts at work (althought Im sure they're cute) so I'll be sticking with boring blogger. :)

Devoid...

of anything interesting to say...

Do you ever feel like your head is playing 6 degrees of Kevin Bacon ALL.THE.TIME. What I mean is.. I am making the weirdest connections today. It's like "oh, you said stapler. That made me think of high school..." What?! Right.

I am SO ready to get out of town this weekend..not b/c I need a weekend away...but I do...but b/c I'm so pumped to hang out in the Chi with LAUREN! I have been craving some serious girl time! To demo my unmotivatedness, I just noticed I was using my hair to make a moustache at myself in my mirror in my office. Then, I laughed at myself. Wow.

I blame allergies. I need some damn Allegra. And PS..the movie Hitch...who names someone Allegra?! Weird. Whatever. (see...again with the weird connections)

And..one more time... My hair moustache just reminded me of a girl I knew in high school (Amanda B. for those of you who know), who used to sit there and clip her split ends in every.single.class.every.single.day. It was weird. Very weird.
But, I guess it entertained her.

And that took me over to the dark side of high school memories, so I'm stopping now.

Anyway, I was super glad Dan won last night! WOO HOO!! Memphis was kinda a tool...and he didnt win anything.

Michele's back from a meeting so I'm going to bother her now b/c the other option of editing a communication plan...

Go watch me.

http://www.nbc.com/Saturday_Night_Live/video/clips/palin-hillary-open/656281/

Putting my foot down with myself.

I have decided to quit talking about getting a new car and to actually do it like a big girl. *reluctant look*

Every.single.car I've bought has been in the winter b/c I've either totaled one (oops) or someone else totaled it for me (think monster jeep in an ice storm versus jax..he drove up OVER the hood of my car. Awesome...)

Anyway, I will NOT look for a car in the winter b/c well, people, it's just not fun. I dont find looking for cars fun anyway, but we all know how I feel about being cold. So, add that to the mix and I'm down right unpleasant.

I dont CARE about cars that much, but I do need one that's more reliable, gets better gas mileage...and one I'm not afraid is gonna leave me stranded in timbucktoo. I dont want anything too expensive b/c again, I dont care. I'd much rather have a car payment that's no big deal and to put down more cash than I should. With me, I'd rather save my money for something fun...like a vacation..or something. Plus, I HATE loans. HATE THEM. I already feel like I have enough of them thanks to law school. I get crazy about my credit card.. (since it's my first one EVER if you'll remember--please applaud my big girl pants from January's resolutions). I seriously pay my balance within a week after I use the card. It's kinda hilarious.

I'm not toting around children (thank God-at this place in my life that is) so it doesnt have to have a ton of room. I am kinda tired of a two door, so will likely go with a small SUV or a 4 door car...maybe. Unlike some, I dont have a "dream car" at all. I really do love SUVs, but with gas prices, that's just not sensible for me. When did I become sensible? *sigh*

So, within the next couple weeks, I suppose I'll get a car. I know the best time to buy is toward the end of the month (3rd week, actually) b/c I'm a research freak. So, if I dont find something this month, then I'll just wait til mid October. I need to start getting excited... I'm working on it... lol! I really DO want a new car...and think it will totally be exciting b/c mine is abouuuuut dunzo.

Mommy wow...I'm a big girl now... LOL!

AND GOSSIP GIRL IS GONNA BE OUTSTANDING TONIGHT! OUT FREAKING STANDING PEOPLE! Think power outage. Think Blair and Chuck. Also, I really want Serena to go all bad girl again. She's boring me. And I think I love Dan. Think I do. I dont want him to be a bad boy though... I like him with Serena.

AND CHICAGO THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAYYY!!!!!! I'm so excited!!!! When Lauren comes here, she's got plenty of other people she has to see and when I go there, I typically stay with Aaron, so this trip is gonna be outstanding since I'm shacking with her and we're having some girl time!!! YAY!

"Hug it out, bitch"

Ari Gold rocks.my.face.off.

Things I've done today (and you can tell I'm bored b/c Im blogging again).
1.Watched a ton of youtube videos of Ari Gold.. Compilation of the first of Season 3 below. It's distasteful and there's cursing. If you dont like that, dont watch it. That's all


2. I worked out... hard. And decided I am going to start going to pilates. I'll let you know how that works out for me. They're offering a new class at my gym! :) I'm also picking up my butts n guts class again. My butt n gut need an intervention. :)

3. Bought a new trash can...b/c it was time....Mine.was.sick. Why? Oh...b/c I never take out my trash. Germs freak me out but apparently walking to the dumpster is just beyond me. So, I intervened with myself and am starting all over. New trashcan, new outlook on my kitchen. hahaha... Also got the CUTEST black wrap around lightweight casual sweater to throw over shirts for fall evenings. Perfect :) Why does Target do that to me?! I go thinking I need nothing and walk out with clothes, housewares, food, whatever... Target is genius. Sheer genius.

Ike and Tina

I wish they'd named hurricanes more thematically...ya know..like Ike and Tina...Just sayin. Justin and Britney...or KFed.. Yes, I want a hurricane KFed.

Anyway, Ike dumped its wrath on Texas and we got the leftovers. And I think my little 1940s apt is in need of some help. I kept hearing dripping under my stove (my stove is actually IN the cabinet and my oven is on another wall). Anyway, I dont really use the cabinet under the stove except for pans. Anyway, when I opened said unused cabinet, check out the awesomtastic tinted water just standing there. It filled the ENTIRE bottom shelf. SICK. SICK. SICK.

I also brought my flowers home from work. :) Some didnt quite make the trip, but I took pictures of the ones that did...both b/c I was bored and b/c I always take pictures of flowers I get (strange Jax tidbit)

Friday night, went out for a little bit to celebrate Brandy passing the bar. Had a totally drama free night...probably one of the best Friday nights I've had in awhile... I woke up Saturday in an outstanding mood...and relaxed the rest of the day while the rain poured outside.

Sat night...see pic

1. Entourage season 4. (which I risked life and limb in the rain to get)

2. Hideaway personal pizza with "just a beginner" salad.

3. Oh..and OU football until I got bored b/c they demolished them...

Overall, excellent weekend. Gets high remarks from the judges (the judges are Gracie and me).

My co workers and I were talking about our "bucket lists"- ya know...before ya go toward the white light. Right. Anyway, some of mine are below. (please note I didnt list the obvious ones that'd make me all mushy gushy like marriage, kids, etc.. Lord knows I've been too mushy gushy lately...haha.. So these are more aimed at just-for-fun stuff) Got any? Please list accordingly. Thank you.

* dive with sharks (in a cage)
* white water raft (I still dont know why I havent done this...but after kayaking I dunno if I'd love it..lol)
* skydive again...over something cooler than Sapulpa.
* learn to sail
* maybe go on safari (yes, I'm serious)
* go to Europe..been kinda obsessed with Rome lately and I dont know why. Weird.
* learn to shoot a gun...and be good at it.
* jump off a waterfall without hurting myself (yes, I want to do it again)
* volunteer in another part of the world...preferably somewhere I wouldnt get raped and killed, but I could still make a difference. ;)

Alright, I could keep going... Im thinking of like 10 more as I sign off..But gotta get to the gym before my ass permanently molds itself to the sofa...

Tonight- BB10, bitches!

AND..CONGRATS TO CARRIE FOR HER PHOTO she took on our DC trip that just WON 1st PLACE in the architecture category!!!! It pays to get off on the wrong subway stop when you're a leetle drunk at 2:3o am.. LOL! :) Go look HERE!

Speakerphone is the devil.

Okay, so I think I've figured out why my productivity is being stifled. My office neighbor is rarely here b/c he's our external/media dude. He's really nice... But he does EVERYTHING on speakerphone. He's been here all.week.

I am currently listening to him activate his new bank card.

REALLY? REALLY? TAKE IT OFF SPEAKER PHONE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD.

And while you're at it, dial down your volume a tad... b/c the octave called "screaming" isnt working for me.

When I'm on a conference call while he's here, I have to mute it until I speak...b/c the people on MY conference call can hear him. It's.that.bad.

God.

While I'm on work stuff... can you believe how bad Ike is?! People are so dumb that they're STAYING?! Getthehellout! The flood walls=18 feet. The waves predicted at 20 feet. Um. Hello? I'm not great at math, but as memory serves me from Katrina, you might be screwed. Even the forecasters are saying "imminent death." Wow. Just wow.

Anyway, bar results are out today! My friend, Brandy, passed! :) Hooray! Remember how nuts I was two years ago? And can you believe it's been TWO YEARS! Gah.

BB10- Buh Bye Jerry... I was happy about the Renegade win, but I did feel badly for Jerry.. I think I want him to be my grandpa... Just sayin. :(

Finally, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BROOKE TODAY!!! Hope you're having an outstanding day! :)

Would you all still love me if I moved to China? Just asking... :)

These are a few of my favorite things..

Some things I like.. b/c I can..and b/c I'm unmotivated right now.... Top 25 that came to my head b/c I had to stop myself

1. Surprises. (good ones, that is)
2. funny greeting cards
3. acting like a kid- playgrounds, jumping in leaves, playing in the rain..you name it.
4. adventures
5. massages
6. flowers
7. fireplaces
8. mood music (for whatever mood)
9. restaurants with patios
10. photos. all photos. funny. staged. serious. artistic.
11. researching things to the brink of insanity.
12. having my hair played with
13. heels
14. big, cozy sweaters
15. hugs
16. pink
17. aquariums. I'm a fool for them...like city ones, not just ones at home. That'd be lame. (justifying)
18. theme parties.
19. antique jewelry boxes...and just antiques in general.
20. vintage t shirts
21. nutcrackers
22. smoothies
23. the smell of rain
24. traveling
25. old buildings

I was VIP and I still dont know why...

White Party.

1. We dressed in white. (after much debating-thank you for listening to me determining which dress I should wear)
2. All theme events need props- hence the hat. It made it in a TON of photos. As someone said, "the hat was the whore of the night..." Kinda was.

3. We acted like children at the zoo.

4. We witnessed a fashion show featuring hot items like the below (um..okay)

5. We took over the runway for our OWN fashion show. much more fun.

Overall, good times.. Not worth the price to hang out with people I already hang with.. But, whatever. New experience and it was fun.

I just saw an add for Serial Killers Living Among Us, a new E! special. Um, really? And people wonder why I cant sleep at night... Right. Cause you KNOW I'll catch it on one of the zillion times it replays and I will likely accuse you all of being killers. Sorry. Gonna happen.

Today, I worked on a script for an event...only to find out the event was cancelled and someone forgot to email me. Nice. See why we have a communications dept?! FOR.SHIT.LIKE.THAT.

I got my SOME of my sweaters out. I refuse to get them all out yet. *sigh*

Things that make me smile.

Things that make a rainy day better:

* Getting called to the dock to pick up a package...that turns out to be flowers. :)

Thanks, A. :)

And please ignore my messy desk. Thank you.

502!

I missed 500! It was the post with all the pics! :) Happy 500th post to me. :)

Went to the Chi O alum thing last night... And I have one thing to say... "Here we are again...looking back on what has been..." The actives came and performed pref and it was so cute. They got choked up on the typical song (the one I just quoted) and it brought back memories.. We're so silly. hahaha.. Anyway, it was cute. It also brought back all the memories of how OFF KEY we all were while the advisors yelled at us.. LOL! And the "Recruitment doesnt end...it lasts forever..." LOL! I get WAY too much of a kick out of this stuff...

Anyway, here's the deal. Some of the younger girls (there werent many of us) from OSU (b/c there were NO girls from TU except Kristen T and a younger girl), and I decided we wanted to start a "Night Owls" group for the younger alums. So, I have a new project. We'll see how this goes...

In other news, all of my stalking for flights paid off.. the flight to the Chi for next weekend dropped by more than HALF! So, I'm headed up for Lauren's bday now! I'm really pumped! I love Chicago and I didnt think I'd get up there again for a very long time b/c Lauren might be thinking of spreading her wings and Aaron's moving to China... So hooray cheap Chicago trips!

You know what starts tonight? Ill tell you- THE MTV CHALLENGE with the RW/RR cast members!!! YES! My FAVORITE! :)

I think I've been having some wacked out dreams b/c lately I've been waking myself up at around 4 or 5 am all tangled in covers and really pissed off. What is THAT about? *sigh*

Happy Hump Day!

I didnt wash my hair today. Whatever.

Would you like to see what a short term lease looks like in Beijing? Here's where Aaron's thinking might work out: http://www.beijingrealestates.com/VirtualSunthirsty.htm

Not that bad.

Anyway, this China thing leaves me fairly insane. One day, I'm alright. One day, I'm pissed. One day, I'm sad. One day, I'm confused. One day, I'm dont want to talk about it.

But, every day, I'm supportive and think this will be a super exciting thing for Aaron. And it's no surprise he wanted to work internationally. I was just kinda hoping for Australia.. hahahaha... :)

Part of me kinda wants to move to Chicago anyway.. I love the city.. absolutely love it. It's so alive... The holiday season is just gorgeous, the summer is outstanding...It's the winter that freaks me out. :) Lauren-expect many visits. I am feeling rather stagnet lately. Blah.

Well, this last weekend was White Party on Friday. I have photos. It was a good time, but so not worth the price if you ask me. We all dressed up, paid a fee, and hung out with the same people we always hang out with. Um.. genius? Yeah. I think so. I tried to avoid the photag but I think I'll likely be on the website. I will have to email to have that taken down. Annoying. Who wants to be on a website (haha.. laughing since I'm blogging).

Saturday night was low key until some stupid law school guys showed up. I feel like the guys are WAY more drama than any of the girls. They took over our table and were basically annoying. I feel like some of the people I hang out with might die from liver failure soon so I kinda need to branch out. Tonight, I will be attending the Chi Omega Alumni dinner if anyone is interested (and also a Chi O) :)

And I think I want Mexican food and no one will eat it with me. Damn all of you. ALL OF YOU.

Things I forgot to post..

Running off to a meeting.. (shocker) but here ya go... Some stuff from over a week ago. :)

1. Sunday night dinner. Sushi and Beer. (Ps.. Reasors has decent sushi). (PPS.. Mary, I used the plates you gave me!!)

2. Dancing around the driveway like morons. Followed by posing in the living room. :)

3. I heart these people. :)

4. If I have a child-ever- I want him/her to do cute poses like this.

I just wanted to eat fresh...damnit

So, went to the mall at lunch to grab something.

Went to Subway with Michele on the way out to get sandwiches.

This is what transpired.

Me: "6 inch turkey on white, please"
Her: *no response, pulls out wheat and looks at me*
Me: "No, white."
Her: *looks perplexed and Michele guides her up to the white bread row* (realizing she speaks no English..like at all)

She puts the entire footlong bread down and again looks at me.

I made a chopping motion and said "half" She understood.

Then, she got ham. I said "NOooo! with a look of horror (I hate ham). Turkey! (as I pointed)"

The rest of the process went that way...with me pointing, nodding, shaking my head and trying to be nice.

Seriously. Who hires someone who cant speak English at the Subway AT THE MALL?

I might visit China in the fall, people. Might. Oh how did my life get so crazy? That, my friends, I do not know. What I DO know is that this is time for Jax....to figure out Jax. Selfishness abound!!! Kidding.. Im just saying I think this will be the perfect time for me to spend some quality time with someone I hold dear- me. That's all.

So, the weather has taken an awesome turn...if I wasnt wearing a little dress tonight outdoors! Nervous!

Okay, I think I'm taking advantage of this whole "flex schedule" thing since I've traveled a lot..and I'm.heading.home.

LOVE LOVE! Stories and photos to follow of me looking oh so pure at white party!

Happy Hump..Thursday?

Hello. Today feels like Wednesday. But it's not.

My cut looks like a mole today. I'm working it. Just FYI.

Did I tell you I got a bonus at work? For doing WELL?! b/c I kick butt?! It's actually an "award" and it's kinda a big deal...like me.

Anyway, it made me feel good. Very good considering how busy I've been lately. :)

I'm still oddly unmotivated this week. It's bad. I blame Gossip Girl for starting out my week so dramatically... ;)

This is TMI, but do you know every single store in this damn town is sold out of seamless nude underwear? Oh, they are. I'm very picky-granted-but seriously.. how hard is it to find a nude thong the day before you have to wear a white dress?! UGH! I think I'll go to Saks for some Hanky Panky panties. Ever had em? They're the most comfy and seamless things ever. They're kinda pricey, but they last. We'll see....

Anyway, at the mall at lunch, this is what I saw...and had to take a pic. When did kiddie leashes come back? Sick. Get rid of it!They tried to make it cuter with a backpack. It's not cute. It's weird. There are two of you...TWO...can you not keep an eye on a three year old between BOTH of you? Wow. You obviously took the time to pick out a stunning green jumpsuit...Anyway...whatever.

And finally..there are people with clipboards walking around outside my window. I think this whole "job" thing is really just a hoax. I'm being observed like I'm a monkey in a cage. Yup. Maybe. Speaking of wild animals...what it one gets out at the zoo tomorrow night? What.if. I mean.. could you imagine? (Note to self...remember where car is parked and look for places to hide from wild animals..)

"I think I'm free next Tuesday"

- That's for you, Kelli.

Anyway...today... is getting better and better! I will fill you in on the details later but it has to do with White Party! HOORAY! :)

Gustav seems to be chapping my ass a little less today. That sounds bad. Whatever.

I want there to be a hurricane Jax. Officially.

I somehow scratched my face or stabbed it with a fork accidentally (dont ask). I have a little mark above my upper lip that looks very Cindy Crawford. I think I shall embrace said mark. It worked for Cindy. Whatever. It's kinda hot. Kinda.

So, everyone say a prayer that it doesnt rain and I dont have a wardrobe malfunction at white party. b/c hello.. WHITE. tight dress. Yeah. Exactly.

I've been fighting the strange desire to put my hair in pigtails every morning. I dont know what this means. Psychoanalyze me.

I've been going from overly reflective weirdass to overly critical bitch to completely distrustful of all human beings...to overly ecstatic about life. My life is a hurricane right now. hahaha! And dont call me bipolar b/c all of those swings happen in the course of a day. I find that when I'm in a cranky/weird mood, I say things to see how people will react. I dont want to argue necessarily, but just to kinda shock someone. It's very odd. It's like my filter is completely off.

Michele's daughter made me a picture for my office of a caterpillar. It's hanging up and I love it.

That's all I've got for you today. :)

I dont feel like posting pictures. So I wont. :) I'll do it later.

So, I have a new favorite show.. Million Dollar Listing. Alright...not a FAV, but it's up there. And it's addictive people. Bravo. Go. Now. It's about a bunch of young guys in real estate in CA and they're all total Dbags...

So, this weekend is White Party. I have decided I am accessory retarded. Yes, yes I am. I've purchased a TON of them and dont like any.. Well, Michele helped me today and I love the earrings and bracelet we picked out, but the necklace might kinda be like "hello, here is my cleavage!" So, we'll see... And if I'm wearing gold earrings, I want gold shoes. Must find now.