Cleaning out my closet

So, the night before I left, I was up til 2am...doing what..?? Oh.. right.. re-organizing my hall closet. When I re-organize, I take EVERYTHING out in a heap in the floor and start all over. Yeah. It wasnt pretty. My apartment STILL looks like a tornado AND hurricane AND earthquake hit. At once.

When I got back from Branson last night, I bought a caulking gun, caulk and stuff to organize my other closet. I need to re-caulk by bathtub in a few places and my bedroom closet looks like it threw up all over my room. So, it's time for an intervention.

And I like projects.

Cleaning/organizing makes me feel in control.

Which is somewhat NOT what I feel like lately. I'm so not depressed...but dude, this economy bullshit is everywhere and is really fucking up my chi. It's making me question whether I make enough money, whether I'll ever make enough money...

Here's the deal.. I want to NEST. haha.. I mean.. I want to really think about buying a house, but having just gotten out of law school 2 years ago...and having one job that paid me CRAP that I left and had to live off my savings to get re-started, I really havent saved as much as I would have liked to date. That's hard to reconcile sometimes...the fact that I'm financially responsible but havent saved what I wanted to b/c I feel like I made a bad choice in my first job out of law school. I mean.. it made me who I am and got me where I am (much happier with a TON of perspective) but still..you get what I'm saying.

Couple that with me working on being more selfish and you get a somewhat confused Jax who works on household projects to feel a sense of accomplishment...lol! :)

Oktoberfest is next weekend and I dont think I've ever been more excited! I might not like fall...or winter rather... (fall only gets my dislike since it's a precursor to winter) but I LOVE Oktoberfest and Halloween...YAY! Speaking of Halloween... I think some friends and I have decided what we're gonna be for the Brady party this year.. and let's just hope it's a warm halloween.. haha.. *nervous* ;)

Happy almost Friday, people!