Dude.

So, I just want to vent. I dont want a pity party b/c I'm not throwing one. I'd let you know if that was the case. :) I just think I'm in multi-tasking hell...

I woke up at 4:45 yesterday morning, showered, got Gracie to mom's, and headed to the airport. Took off for STL. Had meetings all day with the new VP I'll be writing for, some co-workers, etc. Back to the airport at 3:30. Flight was at 7pm so I tried to change it...no go. With the gas prices, etc, there are so many cancelled routes, I was the ONLY flight to Tulsa out of STL that could get me home before 10. So, I had 4 hrs to kill...and a maid of honor toast to draft. :) Started writing when I got the call from my mom saying "Where are you?" I responded with "Um, you have my dog remember..I'm in STL..." She responded with.. "Ok..well..you're grandmother is in the hospital with a few hours to live.. so thought you should know in case you can get home and you're her only next of kin so some decisions might have to be made."

Um. What?!

So, I had to sit there and wait with this information until my 7pm flight, praying I'd make it in time.. I landed at 8:30pm and drove to St. John's where I met my mom. (this is my dad's mom btw).. She was still alive, but in a morphine induced coma b/c she's been placed on comfort measures only. I sat with her for about an hour...talking about my life now, my dog, my vacation recently, brushed her hair. At one point, she mouthed the words I'd just said, so I know she heard me. Anyway, not being morbid..but instead thankful.. I'm SO happy I made it in time. I havent heard anything today and plan to go back again...but.. long and short...

...I felt/feel like a shitty person. My grandma has long since forgotten who I am today...but not that I exist...and was put in a nursing home years ago out of necessity. I havent been there to see her. Not once. That's horrible to admit. I dealt with the fact that she was dying...by not dealing with it at all. At it all flooded in last night. So, I'm thankful I had the chance to talk to her....even if it was the way it was...No one should have to die alone...and I'll never get the years back that I should have been visiting her...

Anyway...not trying to pull tears from you people, but call someone you love that you dont talk to enough is all I'm sayin...

So, enough about that for now.. I then took my still-in-work-clothes self to Blaze's b/c Id missed the bridesmaid dinner she hosted last night and went to help with making the party favors. By the time 10:45 hit, I was out. of. it. I think I said "thank you for eating" instead of "dinner"..whatever..haha..

Went home...and tried to cleaned my apt...b/c it's disgusting...Got a text from Alove asking what time sushi reservations are tonight...and contemplated throwing my phone at a wall..when I realized it's not other people's fault that I have a lot going on... :) Plus, I would have broken my phone and that would be bad... Let's face it.. :)

Long and short...Jax needs some sleep...haha...

ANNOUNCEMENT: My friend and co-worker, Michele, (the one I went to DC with) has joined the blogging world!!!! YAY!!! Since it's not nearly as fun when you feel like you have no readership except those creepy ads saying "good blog-buy viagra from my site now" she said I'm welcome to pass on and link her to mine!! So, if you read her, she welcomes comments! :))

And um.. if the tailor isnt done with my bridesmaid dress today, I might have to thread a needle through an appendage of hers b/c seriously...I'm not in the mood today.. haha. :)

Passion Cove? No. Dripping island? No.

Saturday, Sara and I headed up to Grand Lake to Mike's house for some boating and sun! Mike (standing/leaning above Sara and his little brother in green) had college friends that hadnt been together in years...and had NEVER been to Oklahoma. We had a BLAST!!! His friends are scattered all over the country and have hilariously unique personalities....

For example, please note Mark in his American flag shirt. We had two boats and the below pic features Mark in front after he unbuttoned the American flag shirt so it could blow in the wind Titanic style.. think "I'm the king of the world!" LOL!

Sara and I were on the other boat... the more unpopular boat (we didnt have the beer bong on board...and yes, we both reverted to college and did it...)

We got lunch and then laked it for awhile. We kept trying to explain all the coves to Mike's friends... like Dripping Springs, for example. They never got it right.. calling it "Passion island.... dripping cove..." haha.. Lord.

Anyway, we came home and got ready for a nice dinner at tha yacht club...but not before I got a photo with their 1o month old great dane. This is also about how I slept later..except on a bed next to Sara, too.. June the great dane, Jax, Sara....hilarious.

Tried to set my camera timer... kinda worked out a little....I think I had the flash off.. Whatever.

Okay, so...how to explain Brad...Went to Hookers (bar on the lake). Ran into TONS of people there. Great time!! Brad said if they played Red Hot Chili Peppers, he'd take off his shirt... He and the band became awkwardly tight... Funny...Security wasnt a fan of this shirtless thing..

This was before my hiccups that hurt my ribs all the way home while we dodged deer running across the street...(and no, this isnt our cart..no idea...)

Okay, so.. we got home and Mike told Sara and I to grab the master bedroom before any of the guys passed out in there. So, we did..quickly. Poor Mike had to deal with the living room crowd. Brad (shirtless at the bar) came in our room and laid on the floor with his ipod.. singing...the wrong words and batting at the air trying to dance... Sara called out "Mike....Brad's..." and that's about all she got out before Mike was in the room saying "No, buddy..your room is down the hall.." lol!

During all this, though, Shawn (below) was screaming "I'm not your buddy, guy! I'm not your buddy guy!" Then, he called Raja, the cat, "Mary Puffins"...and kept saying "Free Mary Puffins! I'm gonna let her be free, Mike..." This was before Raja bit him. From there, he took over the golden retriever, Cash, calling it "Damien" and commanding it to eat Mary Puffins. I'm laughing as I'm typing all this...Mike's other friend was busy putting hot dog buns in the toaster.

Sara and I got up at nine-ish and went into town to get stuff to grill. Jeff..aka grillmaster...took care of the food.. Sara and I headed back shortly after. They were headed out on the water again. No idea how...

So glad I went...but one night was definitely all we needed..... Now, I just need a nap.

"Then Callie went all Tila Tequila on us..."

- from my co-worker in reference to Grey's. hahaha! I laughed. A lot.

Alright, if you havent seen it, please stop reading.

If you havent read the writer's blog, it's good this week: http://www.greyswriters.com/

Here's the deal.

I'm happy with the Derek/Mer sitch. I do, however, wonder why they showed him walking off like something is going to happen to him before he can come back.. I dunno. It just seemed to perfect. I see car wreck, accident, ferry boat..something. But, the candles...and the "floorplan"...omg... I mean...seriously... I think I want to date Meredith Grey after that.. haha.. Kidding.

I'm glad cement boy didnt die. There's been a lot of death on the show lately.

Goodbye Rose. We wont miss you. Or you could start dating Sloane. I would like that. ha.

Here comes the controversy. I dont like Dr. Hahn and Callie. There's nothing wrong with them being lesbians. I dont really care about all that. I just dont like the way they teased us about it for 3 eps...I dunno. I just feel like, even with the teasing, it kinda came out of left field...the whole story line that is...like "hey, we need some lesbians..let's do it.." I dunno.

I just dont see them winning any GLAAD awards.

Anyway, Izzy cracked my shit up last night (before she got all serious). I wanted to hug Alex. And, Lexi still bugs me.

That's that.

And So You Think You Can Dance (SYTYCD) was amazing, as usual. ;) I already have two favs... The soccer player girl...and the girl who tries out every year and cant make it past Vegas.

Tomorrow, I take my injured butt to the lake!!! Well, my butt isnt injured...but you get it. :) I'll just take it easy... :) So excited!

Happy Memorial Day weekend!!

I'm a badass...my injuries prove it

Today is the day I went to the doctor. I know.. I know.. Stubborn Jax finally gave in b/c everyone convinced me I could be internally bleeding and slowly dying. *sigh*

Diagnosis: One or more broken ribs. Torn rotator cuff.

Prescriptions: Lunesta and Celebrex.

Basically, I kick ass. Seriously. WHO DOES THAT?! I even made my doctor watch the video. Laugh, but I did it.

Went to dinner with Blaze at Los Cabos last night and she and I had a great talk...about our friendship, getting married, etc.. I cant wait to celebrate her big day with her... I just cant believe it's happening so fast... I'm gonna cry at the wedding. It's gonna happen. And it's a Catholic ceremony so I have lots of time to cry. Gross. Why am I having my makeup done again? LOL! :) I always cover emotion with sarcasm...but I'm genuinely in awe of my best friend getting married. It's amazing... :)

And...Grey's is tonight. I saw some kid in a cement block in the previews. Um.. no. I dont want that. I want Sloane to do something bad. I want Rose to get dumped. Most of all, I want the girl surgeon heart lady (name escaping me) to be a lesbian. Now THAT would make for drama!

Also.. SYTYCD STARTS TONIGHT!!!!! I hope Cat is the host again.. I just love her... I want an accent. Damnit.

Sin City

Last night, Kelli and I went to a presentation. She won a trip to VEGAS and we had to go sit through something in order to receive. Ever heard of that? Yeah, well..it was comedic.

First of all, the fact she's taking me might make me pee myself I'm so excited even though there are quite a few stipulations. Second, what we sat through last night was definitely worthy of a prize.

We watched a guy speak, tell lame jokes, and have some issues with sweating for about 30 minutes. From there, a nice gentleman with track mark scars told us all about the options we could purchase from their company.

Knowing we just had to get through this hell in order to go to Vegas, we listened.

Track Marks: "So, you ladies can just put down 1300 today and pay a mere 150 a month and travel ANYWHERE in the WORLD."
Me: "*points at 1300* Sir, do you understand that's about what I pay in student loans per month?"
Track Marks: "Well, ladies, what number works for you? Give me any number...any number at all.."
Kelli: "......5 dollars..."

I dont think he liked that. Keep in mind.. he liked us enough initially to tell us about his ex wife smuggling pot in her panties at the airport. *um, yes, I'm serious*. But, I think the "5 dollars" made him realize we weren't in it to win it... We just wanted to V-town sin city lovin.

With that, the salespeople's eyes that once glistened when we'd uttered the words "yeah, we're lawyers" grew dim. A few final ditch attempts and they let us have our Vegas trip without further remark. (after 2.5 hours of being there).

Long story short, WE'RE GOING TO VEGAS, B*TCHES (but not within 7 days of a holiday or without planning 60 days in advance...or leaving on any other day besides Mon, Tues or Wed) Whatever.. we're going to VEGAS!!! :))))

A very weird thing happened today...

I shouldnt be so weirded out by it, but... I am.

So, Blaze...and likely Andrea...will remember a certain boyfriend I had in high school. He went to a different school...and was a TOTAL D-BAG. Needless to say, I had a lot of "firsts" with him and thankfully a lot of "lasts" as well....

If there was one person I could remove from my history, in some ways, it would be him by far. In others, I learned a TON...about how I should be treated and what I would never put up with again...and how I mustve had a guardian angel to not get into some deeeeeeep trouble.

It was kinda like Gossip Girl...without the cool clothes or excessive wealth. Kinda. Okay, not at all, but whatever. Let me have my moment.

My personal fave was when he was IN MY HOUSE when I got home from school...waiting on me. CREEP.Y. Or when he had me convinced I needed to drop like 5lbs (which I totally didnt..asshole) or when I saw him leaving one of my (then) best friend's houses across the street after we broke up.

He was a classy guy...even 12 years ago. (crazy how long it's been)

Well, he changed his name...(yes, he really did..cause that's not creepy) and moved away.

We had some knock down drag outs. I seem to remember an iron getting thrown at me....and I think I threw quite a bit at him. Way too much for a freshman relationship. *insert wide eyes shaking my head*

We'll go ahead and tag that as my slightly-violent/abusive/creepy stage of dating for me... The other stages havent been as dramatic.... haha...thankfully.

I never heard from high school guy. Until today. When he found me on facebook.

Whoa. He lives in Florida (a safe distance in other words) and has a daughter. I thought "wow...times have changed...we've both grown up...."

.....until the MOMENT I accepted his friend request and he messaged me. Yeah. STALKER. lol! Said "I was thinking about you...and thought I'd find you on here..."

Um, dude. It's been 12 years. *insert cocky face* I'm memorable...but damn... lol! (Kidding kidding..the only thing I remember is pouring a pepsi on his head at our school carnival..no shit).

Anyway...needless to say, it was weird. He's married...or divorced...or whatever.. I dont know. I'm sure he's grown up, but....name the last person you'd want to be contacted by...

Yeah. WEIRD, right? Anyway, I'm above it and we can be friggin facebook friends. But, that doesnt mean I cant blog about it. So there.

Also... went to sushi with Sarah tonight! YUM! Good times with ITR salads and girlie talk. :))) We missed Brooke and Jenny though. Please pencil us in for soon, lovelies. There's nothing like sushi on the patio with friends...and Honig of course.. Gotta have the Honig. :)

I'll have to blog about the rest of the night with Kelli tomorrow...but it's quite hilarious.... :) Love love.

The coke wasnt the same....

I didnt wash my hair today. I was running too late. Whatever. I tried to make it look good with that cute headband. Totally not achieving whatever I was going for today. *sigh* haha..

Anyway, please note..I have STILL not blow-dried my hair. Not since I've been back. Nope. I also bought glass coke bottles at the store last night. They werent the same...as evidenced by the need for the bottle opener (that I couldnt find). I instead used a sharp knife to poke a rather large hole in the lid then poured the contents into a glass and pretended like I wasnt really stressed about the whole thing. Whatever. I'm still on vacation in my mind. It didnt taste the same though...a bit metallic with the whole lid pouring thing. Whatever.

And.. I know you watch the show (S.G.), but dude.. Gossip Girl last night was AAWESOMEEEE! I was a bit hacked at how they got rid of Georgina.. Kinda lame. And I bet Chuck wont do anything with that person....and... Serena and Nate. Totalllly. Dan's an idiot.

The Bachelorette.. LOVE. HER. I was rooting for Jenny during the actual show, but later felt for DeeAnna. I mean.. what a jerk that dude was! What.a.jerk. I LOVED how there were 25 guys all saying "What a loser! Who wouldnt want to marry this girl? She's AWESOME!" My favs are Graham, Dallas Atty guy, and guy with the kid. I'm a hopeless romantic. It's sad actually.

Oh..and in case you havent heard, there's a petition to get a dog park in Tulsa. Apparently, cops have been ticketing people at the 25th and peoria park. lame. There's this big "2 works for you" uproar. They have a yahoo group called "Bark park" or something. I have the link if you want to sign up. Just lemme know.

SYTYCD starts THURSDAY, LOVELIES!!!!

Thursday/Friday

Thursday in Monteverde!!! We canopy toured..which I HIGHLY recommend.. HIGHLY!! The repels were the best part in my opinion... Amazing.. The annoying couple from wherever they were from were the WORST. Just so you have an idea HOW annoying...

In Spanish, "listo" means "ready."

The guide said "Lista?" (asking the woman if she was ready)

She said "hahahah (annoying laugh).. All this time I thought you were callin' me Lisa but not sayin it right...and my name isnt even Lisa.."

Then she and her husband burst into laughter. Wow.


We got to climb the inside of a tree!! :)


Left bright and early for the BEACH! That's where we met all our friends. We all rode the same van to Montezuma. Friday, it was a bit cloudy, but we hiked to the first waterfall, swam around, then went to the beach to check out the *TALL* waves...

Where the ferry picks up... Puntarenas...



Welcome to the beach!!!

Staying bronze. ;)

With this whole new "I dont want to wear as much makeup" leaf I'm turning over, I need a good bronzer. Any suggestions? If you dont get the right one, it's either too glittery/shimmery or too heavy...or not heavy enough...Recommendations appreciated. :)

Also...I'm wearing the most adorable headband today....courtesy of CARRIE!! :)) When I was looking for headbands, she directed me to an artist on esty.com. I found one I LOVED but it was gone when I tried to order it. Long story short, she posted it again and Carrie got it for me as a surprise for my vaca! Sadly, it didnt make it in time..but I LOVE it anyway and have already gotten two compliments on it today!! Three cheers for Carrie...and for etsy! :)

I tried to post a pic of it, but I cant seem to make it work on blogger right now. Here it is though!

Vaca withdrawl

I'm having serious withdrawls, people...

* I want a "coke regular" (said in Spanish) in a glass bottle with a straw. They were SO good in Costa.
* I didnt even blow dry my hair this morning... partly out of defiance that I was back.. I barely put on makeup, too. Vacations make me realize I wear too much makeup.
* I didnt wake to ocean waves...but to my a/c window unit. Blah.
* I have over 200 work emails I'm currently taking a break from answering... (including one that announced my big boss is leaving the company... everyone said I need to vaca more often to see who else will leave..haha)
* I'm picked an outfit to match the necklace and bracelet I bought...just so I could wear them...

Ah... vacation... *le sigh*

After meeting the couple from London, having a friend who might be moving there (LAUREN!!!!!!), and never having been to Europe, I really want to go there next if possible...

I dont plan to leave my job... I love my job... but.. if I ever even change positions, it would be great to take a month off or so in between and vaca for a bit somewhere.. Ahh.. wishful thinking.. :)

Anyway, slept propped on pillows in a kind of half-sitting position.. MADE THE BIGGEST DIFFERENCE EVER. This morning, I didnt cringe or have to grit my teeth as I pulled myself out of bed!!!

Alright...back to checking my emails...with my boring pepsi beside me.. Damn those glass coke bottles everywhere. They're just so awesome. *sigh* :)

UPDATE

Update: One rib definitely broken. It's on my right side...while my shoulder/arm injury is on my left.. Lord. The doctor (well, graduating med school this month) agrees on the broken rib. It pops in and out of place...and if it's "out" of place, it hurts worse. But, I can bend and pop it again and it's alright. Yes, this sounds crazy, but whatever. Its kinda cool that I did it jumping off a waterfall. It only hurts when I'm getting up from laying down or bending to reach for something....and I basically feel like someone took a sledgehammer to my breastbone b/c I think it's bruised pretty bad, too... But, hey... once I get moving, it's alright.

My arm is doing better. Doc thinks I just overextended or did something to the muscle. You'll have to check out the pics where Aaron's like "spread your arms and smile!!" and I try so hard, but my left just wont...I can put my hands on my hips no problem, but straightening the arm and raising it, not so much...

Needless to say, it couldve been A TON worse.. I could have snapped my neck. I'm so stubborn that I just HAD to jump.. *shaking my head at myself* Anyhoo...it hasnt slowed me down though.. Hiked to some deserted beaches today. :)

I really wanted to go horseback riding, but I cant hold the reins b/c my hurt arm is my left arm...aka my prominent hand's arm.. But, its alright. We did the route the horses walk on foot today....as evidenced by all the horse poo.... haha

Well, I just didnt want my last blog to be so dramatic about being hurt and felt the need to update...haha.. :) I just wish the damage couldve all been on one side of my body....

Cant wait to post photos!!!! Headed to a beach tomorrow called Mal Pais to check it out. :) Waves are supposed to be awesome there...and they're about 6 feet here but apparently that's "tiny" compared to surfer's paradise, Mal Pais. Needless to say, I will not be surfing...hahaha...That is ,unless a girl hitting on Aaron does it and I get the jackass idea to show her up again....

Btw...a bull just ran down the street where we were all eating...WHAT?! And..I cant stop feeding the stray dogs....or taking pics of every lizard I see... Whatev. :)

Saw there were some horrible storms the other night in OK. I hope everyone is alright... Were they horribly bad? Damage?

Okay...try to blog again manana! :)))))

When they say peligro, they mean it

Making this fast...about to dinner at that resort with the doctor couple from the chi. thank got they're docs b/c....

So, we hiked to the top of the fall you can leap into. It was a trecherous hike...very much so actually. It's about a 50 foot jump or higher. Aaron did it. Kat did it. Then, I did it...kinda.. I stood there, on the edge of the rock...and went for it...and

...hit the water chest/shoulder first. Like so bad I came up and thought I was sinking again b/c I couldnt move my body or breath. My breaths sounded like stifled moans instead. Aaron immediately swam to me realizing I wasnt fucking around... I finally started to breath after noisily gasping for quite a bit....

That's when I realized I couldnt move my arm. At all. I tried to climb up the rock and fell back town, with tears in my eyes from the pain. I was seriously about to flip my shit b/c I thought I'd broken something. I was finally able to get up again with Aaron's help. The guy at the top thinks I injured my rotator cuff (?). IN.SANE. Pretty sure I cracked a rib b/c breathing kinda feels like I'm being stabbed...lol!

Yes, I LOL only b/c.... gah... I crack my shit up. I managed to make the hike down with only 3 appendages instead of 4 and took a pic (of course). So, Im hoping my little daredevil and uncoordinated move isnt gonna impact me more than today... But, wow...cliff diving... Amazing, guys... not worth a broken rib and shoulder...but amazing...AND

I GOT A VIDEO.. the guy up top (another tourist) tookmy camera and got a video of me.. you should see the panic in my eyes before I jump! LOL!

Anyway, Kat ended up being pretty chill...although I'd be retarded to think she wasnt slightly hitting on Aaron...which got a little annoying by the end.. Well, not 'hitting on' but more just "you're so sweet...you get points...aww...." followed with "so...um...are you guys like a couple?"

Girls. Lol. Needless to say I wasnt overly disappointed that she was leaving Montezuma today....I really liked her...but...I think anyone would have gotten on my nerves when I couldnt breath or move my arm...hahaah.... :)

Just call me daredevil. Peace.