Round one: Webhancer 1, Jax 0
Round two: Webhancer company receiving a scathing legal letter from Jax, winner TBD.

The disk to reformat or whatever is being ordered after I buy a hard drive and back everything up tonight. UGH.UUUUGH. *clenching fists* Do you have microsoft office? Can I borrow it, if so? I'm a jackass and dont have the slightest CLUE where my Office went.. likely in a box with law school stuff. *sigh*

So, I cleaned my hardwoods...like I said below. Well, Gracie dog flies across the floor now. It's COMICAL AS HELL. She looks so upset while she's doing it though.. hahaha...

Tonight:
Gossip GIRL! Gawd I love Serena. I cant WAIT!

Also Samantha Who is back on tonight. I think I'm a cross between Serena from GG and Samantha from Samantha Who. Done. That's my assessment for today.

Happy Columbus Day or whatever.

I'm blogging b/c outlook is FUCKING frozen and I'm annoyed b/c an impt email is STUCK in this frozen limbo. Stupid damn outlook.

And I want to go home.

And I cant til this EMAIL UNFREEZES. UNFREEZE! I command you, you piece of SHIT.

Alright, so I'm a little too violatile for my email right now.

TGIF, people. T.G.I.F. haha...

b/c Fridays arent meant for deep thoughts...

It's FRIDAY!!!

This week, I've:
* Been to Branson and thought about "riding the ducks" just to see what all the fuss is about
* Pinballed through Branson landing and the..ahem.. slightly older crowd, almost mowing them down, laptop in tow, running late...
* Realized someone might be psycho. Might be.
* Keep forgetting to download Britney's new song. DAMNIT.
* Picked out Halloween costumes with Brandy and Sara for the Brady party! WOO HOO! Best party. Hands down. Wanna come?
* Prepared my liver for Oktoberfest. Practiced chicken dancing. It will be awesomesauce people.
* Watched the debate...and may or may not have actually text in a vote for "who won the debate"... Whatever. Just practicing what it will feel like to cast my vote for the better candidate.. lol! I'm an asshole.
* Watched Grey's. Liked Grey's.
* Realized my allergy pills and wine are not a good combination.
* Contemplated applying for a job in another city for more $$ just to see...but havent done it yet.
* Fell asleep in the car. riding with my boss. I was TIRED, people. It was only a few seconds.
* Decided Lowe's really does know. I want to paint. They helped.
* Decided it's bullshit that bankers have Monday off.

This weekend, I plan to:
* Have sushi. unless my sushi date isnt feeling well... She's been sicky.
* Look at leaves. Yes, it's that simple. Maybe at Woodward. I dunno. They're pretty.
* Organize my apartment.
* Catch up on my dvr.
* Maybe see/rent a movie.
* Buy stuff for Halloween costumes.
* Bathe litte G dog. She's a hot mess.
* Car shop

Yeah, that's as enthralling as I get right now. I'm going to lunch. Lates.

Cleaning out my closet

So, the night before I left, I was up til 2am...doing what..?? Oh.. right.. re-organizing my hall closet. When I re-organize, I take EVERYTHING out in a heap in the floor and start all over. Yeah. It wasnt pretty. My apartment STILL looks like a tornado AND hurricane AND earthquake hit. At once.

When I got back from Branson last night, I bought a caulking gun, caulk and stuff to organize my other closet. I need to re-caulk by bathtub in a few places and my bedroom closet looks like it threw up all over my room. So, it's time for an intervention.

And I like projects.

Cleaning/organizing makes me feel in control.

Which is somewhat NOT what I feel like lately. I'm so not depressed...but dude, this economy bullshit is everywhere and is really fucking up my chi. It's making me question whether I make enough money, whether I'll ever make enough money...

Here's the deal.. I want to NEST. haha.. I mean.. I want to really think about buying a house, but having just gotten out of law school 2 years ago...and having one job that paid me CRAP that I left and had to live off my savings to get re-started, I really havent saved as much as I would have liked to date. That's hard to reconcile sometimes...the fact that I'm financially responsible but havent saved what I wanted to b/c I feel like I made a bad choice in my first job out of law school. I mean.. it made me who I am and got me where I am (much happier with a TON of perspective) but still..you get what I'm saying.

Couple that with me working on being more selfish and you get a somewhat confused Jax who works on household projects to feel a sense of accomplishment...lol! :)

Oktoberfest is next weekend and I dont think I've ever been more excited! I might not like fall...or winter rather... (fall only gets my dislike since it's a precursor to winter) but I LOVE Oktoberfest and Halloween...YAY! Speaking of Halloween... I think some friends and I have decided what we're gonna be for the Brady party this year.. and let's just hope it's a warm halloween.. haha.. *nervous* ;)

Happy almost Friday, people!

September Madness

Have you seen this? My friend, Eric, sent it to me...and I find it hilarious! Dble click to make it bigger...

Im in my meeting right now....so cant blog a ton...but Im in the back and the topic is currently waaaaay irrelevant to why Im here...
* why are meeting rooms always cold?
* why are meeting rooms always named things like "copper caye" or something weird?
* why do I drink so much in meetings thus creating a problem...Hell.

Did you know the creator of the Bellagio fountain also created one in Branson? Welp, he did. It's awesome....It's got fire in it, too...and fireworks!! I heart fireworks...and fountains. You know you're jealous of my Branson getaway...Go ahead, admit it. It's so much like Vegas, it's scary...;)

Debate tonight. Get excited, people.

Lets go TULSA!

I'm not in a blogging mood.. but I'm leaving town tomorrow so.. here's an update..

The new U is FABULOUS! Look behind Blaze and me at the fun fountains!

At our tailgate! :) I didnt get a good shot with Kat b/c Nater was upset.. :( Poor guy. He had a busy day.. :) His first TU game.. already a TU fan!!
Tailgating on the new U :) You're looking at where the Wendy's JRs used to be.. Well..not exactly but pretty much...
Sonoma before TU on Tap on Friday!
TU on Tap!
Pics from when Aaron was here.. At the fair! :)
Yeah, I made him do this.... LOL!

Above is our last Tulsa photo before he left.. Boo.. BOOOOOOO... :( Alright, alright.. no trips down memory lane right now.. Blah.

Weekend was good. I'm just in a weird place and keeping myself distracted by not talking about... oh...really much of anything serious. LOL! So, if you thought I was weird this weekend, I'm sorry... I'm just sensitive lately.. and I know that's no one's fault but mine. So, I'm just watching myself so I dont snap or something... I dunno...

I love homecoming!!! It's so great to see everyone every year!! :))

Anyway, I'm out of town through Wednesday for work...and kinda concerned about getting my lazy ass up in the morning to make it on the road as early as I need to be...

Oktoberfest is coming, people. Please brace yourselves.. AND.. I'd like to send a shout out to Kelli on her FIRST DAY OF HER NEW JOB!! Congrats, chica! :))))

Womanizer

Random b/c I want to be:

1. Listen to Brit's new song, Womanizer...I think she's officially BACK..and I think I want to dance to her songs. Now. Thank you.

2. We have moved dinner tomorrow night thanks to some unforseen circs. If you plan on attending, please email me and I will let you know details.

3. I dont understand the f*cking breakdown that IS Sonic at the mall. I went to grab some bracelets for my dress tomorrow night. In. Out. Done. Right? Wrong. I wanted a damn vanilla Dr. Pepper...and after 25 minutes in line, I threw my arms up and sighed (literally) and went to Chick Fil A.

4. Kelli rocks my world. (I so wrote "me" again...GAH..I fixed it..) Anyway, Kel rocks me world. ;) She knew I was having a rough week (I'll blog about it later) and is driving up to have dinner with me!!! I love her. LOVE. HER.

5. I'm SO excited for the tailgate! Are you? I'm here to help, people. Here.To.Help. Help set up. Help with food. Help drink... ya know..whatever..I guess they're moving a ton of the tailgates to that "new U" thing... I dont know. Glad we have a good place...

6. Tomorrow, I plan on drinking enough to get a few UDIs (unidentified drinkin injuries) but not enough to miss my 10am hair appt the next day. Hell. I plan to take a cab to dinner (yes, I'm serious) so I am not even TEMPTED to drive my ass home. That is, unless YOU want to take me to my car on Sat morning so I can get my hair did.

My boss is speaking in the atrium in 5 minutes... gotta go hear my motivational messages... Maybe I'll end up motivating myself? Eh? Just a thought.

Am I a leprechaun? Lord.

Instead of fixing my typos in the previous blog and others, I'd rather make fun of myself...

I've been accidentally writing "me" instead of "my" lately... a LOT.. So, it's "me feelings" and "me job"

Seriously...just dont take me gold. I'll f*ck you up. ;)

Because I'm a lawyer...

Because I'm a lawyer... (or b/c I'm just me...whatever)

1. I love researching arguments. Love.it. You dont believe me when I say "x"? Okay, hold on...lemme pull up my laptop.

2. I like to have all the facts. If I'm missing them, it drives me insane...especially if I feel like I'm missing them b/c YOU'RE not providing them. I become a sleuth and try to figure it out anyway.

3. Giving me time to cool down sometimes works.... But, most of the time, it just makes me little brain work through the facts as if I was in CSI, giving me a chance to further support my argument. In law school, you're told you pick an argument and defend it. If I dont have all the facts and am left alone with my thoughts, I subconsciously defend my argument in my head until I'm confident there is no other answer.

4. I HAVE to understand. HAVE to. A friend actually pointed this out awhile back and it's the most accurate assessment someone has made of me in awhile. I like to be understood..like in an argument..if someone refuses to see my side in any way, I become impossible to deal with. (*read: total and complete bitch*). If, however, it's ME that doesnt understand b/c someone isnt trying to make me understand their side or why they think the way they do, I become just as impossible b/c I begin to find the other person untruthful.

5. If you're honest with me, I'll be honest with you. If you're dishonest with me, my moral compass points a little less than in your direction...

What sparked all that, you ask? Well, I was deep thinking about my need to understand things and I started reflecting on other things... :) I'm not grumpy or agitated as it may sound...well...no more than normal. ;)

So, last night, went to the FAIR! It was awesome tastic. (In case you havent noticed, I've started adding 'tastic' to everything)

I cant WAIT for the weekend, people! Homecoming! WOO HOO!!!! :))))

This week is a hard week, people... Beam me into next week, please... Thanks.

And..HAPPY OCTOBER! (when did it become OCTOBER?!)

"I have a dream?"

Yeah, so one of my jobs is to write speeches. Sometimes I have more...sometimes I have none. It's like 20-30% of my job.

So, how come I have three in the next two weeks when I'm feeling about as motivational as a tree stump? Fuck.

And.. I'm outta town some of next week, so the motivational blood needs to start flowing through me TO.DAY.

Does "willing" mean I'm easy? haha

So, the pic is of a little index card I keep in my bathroom. Some of you may remember it from rush in college... We did a lot of cheese-tastic things in that sorority admittedly...But, I'm okay with the above. We all sat around, wrote our names on an index card and started passing them...asking each girl to write one word to describe the person on the card.

Well, I found it when I moved here...and I was faced with not only graduation from law school, but a summer apart from my boyfriend while he explored Asia. Needless to say, I had a few mornings when I didnt wake up super ecstatic about life as I grabbed books that were too heavy/bulky for one bag and faced what I thought was impending doom...haha... Gotta love the bar...

Anyway, I'm rambling, but I put this card in my bathroom, stuck haphazardly in the mirror clip. And there is has stayed since then so I can see it every morning when I get out of the shower. When I'm in a crappy mood or maybe a leetle down, I see it and it makes me that much happier.
I think some of the girls writing were dilusional, but their dilusions make me happy. Whatever. It's not really the words, but more that I'm at least doinga good job fooling people that I'm not a complete jackass.. ha... ;)

And, why did I bring that up tonight? Oh...b/c my shower head project turned dreadfully wrong when I realized I couldnt even get the wrench from the package.... Yeah, seriously. (CHILD SAFETY TAGS CAN KISS MY ASS). Then, I couldnt get the current head off... ARG. So, I decided to side track for a second...haha....

Other things that made me smile today:

* Our intern in AR text me from college: "I hate school. Can I just borrow your JD while you're not using it." My response "Yup..At least then I'd feel like I was getting my money's worth if two of us had it..."

* I may or may not have put on my cute dress for Friday on, danced around the apartment...and made my dog thing I was nuts.

Back to cleaning...Cleaning is good... except when I'm in this super reflective "look at the index card" mood.. This is gonna take forever.. lol!

My dog ate it.

Gracie ate my work phone...well, most of it, that is. *sigh* There are worse things in life. I didnt even yell at her b/c, frankly, what's the point? She'd already done it...and she'd just spend the day hiding from me if I yelled. Blah.

I think she may have found my bronzer brush as well-which also hacks me off. I had this AWESOME brush and it broke on one of my August work trips.. That said, I was still using it...b/c I loved it that.much. It looked sooo trashtastic. haha. I have bought about 4 brushes that just.dont.do.it like the ghetto stub of the broken one. *sigh* Alas, it's gone...I'm sure I'll find it riddled with puppy fur and teeth marks.

I was bummed.out. last night. I dont think the magnitude of Asia had really sank in. I get very Scarlett Ohara "Ill think about that tomorrow"...haha.. I also think I was distracting myself and putting energy into things that dont deserve as much energy as I've given. I realized that some of the things I was distracting myself with upset me... b/c I wasnt even behaving like MYSELF these past two weeks. Before that, I was having a good time and was actually making sense of everything. Then, somewhere, I just decided "annnnd...maybe I dont think I'll deal with this..." hahaha... By blocking things out, I really started to displace my emotions in weird places. (*think: being a bitch to people that didnt deserve it, letting someone walk on me who shouldnt have, complete inability to make easy decisions*)

Uuuun...healthy... (clap clap clapclapclap) hahaha... So, I feel better today. I blame Brothers and Sisters for my emotional breakthrough.. lol! Kidding...

Now that I've talked myself in a complete circle, I am SO excited for homecoming this weekend! I always get weirdly excited about it, though.. I make a bigger deal out of it than I need to. Whatever. Every year, I ask myself why I went to TU on Tap, but it's good to see that handful or more of people (that you actually enjoy talking to) that you otherwise wouldnt see... I have a SUPER cute dress to wear thanks to my trip to see Lauren in Chi! :))) It shall be featured in many photos. Prepare yourself.

So, if you're still paying attention... There's something this blog doesnt adequately demonstrate about me.. I tend to be all "Yay! Look at my photos! Lookie! Lookie! I love pink!" Well, some of you know my capability to be a complete and utter bitch; I just dont blog about it. That said, recently, a guy tricked one of my good friends into thinking he doesnt have a girlfriend (he does). Needless to say, after over 6 mos of dating, she found out in a really ugly way. My opinion: Take all the lovey dovey emails he's sent...all the pictures of them together...and send them...straight to his girlfriend. I would. She deserves to know...and he deserves to suffer. Granted, this is coming from the girl who planned to catch someone cheating, take a picture, and send it to her boyfriend...all b/c she f*cked with me and hurt my feelings on purpose. Bitch. I ended up taking the high road..blah blah...karma..blah blah...but still...

But, uh..yay! Hooray for my cute dress! hahahaha!

Happy Monday, people! Thanks for sticking with my non-subject randomness lately. Love love.